That I'm strong enough, tough enough in facing things that might hurt me, that's what i learn about myself today. Things that I've just realized....

Have you???

Felt like losing something that even never belongs to you??
been afraid of something that never exist??
Felt so shame at a moment that you wish the earth split and eat you alive??
wanted to kick somebody without any specific reason??
been in Love but don't have any courage even just to admit it in your heart??
needed to say something good but the words from your lips just don't coming alright??
missed someone yet just want to erase him from your mind at the same time???
thought that you can change the world just by a single blink of your eyes??
danced crazily in front of the mirror in your room??
fell to the ground ridiculously??
suddenly felt so happy even though nothing had happened??
met someone for the the first time but it seems you've known them for years??
caught an eye to eye with someone but directly turn it another direction??




well, sort of....
I have.

ketika Ibu tak di rumah

mencoba meraciknya,mengingat semua yang pernah diajarkannya dan memasaknya.
ah, ternyata jauh... mendekatipun tidak...
saya belum bisa sepertinya.

Pulang ke rumah, ada banyak orang tapi tetap terasa sepi...
bukannya tidak menghargai, hanya saja kehadirannya seorang melebihi ribuan orang yang mengelilingi saya...

Bercerita panjang lebar tetapi ternyata belum lega rasanya.
Masih ada batu besar yang mengganjal.
Tidak seperti ketika sehabis berkeluh kesah padanya, beban berat terasa meluncur bebas dari pundak...



Ah, saya rindu...
rindu masakan itu, rindu suara itu, rindu wajah itu, rindu belaian dan pelukan itu...


ah, Ibu...
saya Rindu....

some things are better left unsaid

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