I just can't stand it

hari-hari kemarin begitu hectic buat saya......

banyak hal yang membuat hari-hari itu begitu membuat saya merasa terkuras fisik dan mental


lelah, capek dan sejenisnya benar-benar menjadi teman setia di akhir jam kerja

Rasanya ingin segera hari jumat saja
rasanya ingin segera berada di rumah bersama mereka
dan rasanya ingin segera berkeluh kesah dan memeluk bunda


tapi, itu semua hanya rasa-rasanya
karena masih ada empat hari berikutnya


Tuhan,bantu saya.............
bibirpun berucap doa.



ah iya, meski begitu ternyata ada untungnya juga
rasanya waktu berlalu tanpa terasa,
tidur malampun begitu pulasnya,
ah, tapi sepertinya tidur saya akan selalu pulas apapun keadaannya



saya orang yang cukup tangguh bertahan di setiap kesulitan dan tekanan
mental saya pun baja

saya rasa......


tapi pertahanan itu roboh juga
dan baja itu bukan anti karat ternyata


siang itu, entah mengapa mata ini memanas tiba-tiba
tetes air yang saya tahan sekuat tenaga
akhirnya tak mampu terbendung juga



entah bagaimana menyembunyikannya
oh, iya berpura-pura tidur saja
koran pun menjadi penutup muka
dan tetes demi tetes air itupun jatuh sekenanya


janjipun dilanggar sudah,

"tidak akan ada air mata untuk setiap kesulitan, dian"

"biarkan air mata tumpah hanya jika haru biru yang dirasakan atau film-film jepang korea yang membuat tersedu-sedan"




ah, entahlah
ternyata saya tak setegar batu karang
mental saya mental baja karatan
atau mungkin ini pertanda bahwa saya benar-benar perempuan....



-Sabtu, 13022010
dini hari 01:00
sekedar berkeluh kesah, dikala mata yang biasanya mengatup rapat masih terbuka dengan lebarnya-

Indomie Goreng

when you are facing two choices...

pretty hard choices that you have to choose..

between

buying Indomie Goreng in a minimarket or buying it at warung bapak-bapak tua near your neighbourhood....

Okay, I am a little bit overboard here but you know, it's important. I mean it's serious, at least for me.


Here's the case :

In Alfamart there's a big sale of Indomie goreng. You know, this noodle- that you have known since you were a kid- is the most delicious instant fried noodle ever! :-D.

If I'm not mistaken the cost per pack is Rp.1250,
please correct me if i'm wrong.
And in this minimarket they sell it Rp.500
I don't know why they can do this, you know selling the most delicious instant noodle,
I state it again, selling the most delicious instant noodle ever with only Rp.500!






meanwhile, bapak-bapak tua near your neighbourhood sell it too, but in normal price.
I mean normal for the retail seller, around Rp.1300-Rp.1500.


Nah, between this two choices. Which one will I choose?
formerly, I'll choose this Rp.500-Indomie Goreng.
Especially, when I was "anak kost".
We- me and my friends at the boarding house- are those who used to love everything's cheap and free :-D,
until now actually.



but, one night my brother ask me, what you get if you choose the big-sale one??

yeah, yeah, yeah....
Let say you want to buy 5 packs of indomie, with that simple math, you know that you'll get Rp.4000 off if you buy it there,
and what you get from Rp.4000?? another indomie goreng, some cookies, candies or what??


but in the other hand, If you choose this warung bapak-bapak tua in your neighbourhood, what will you get??
of course you'll lose that Rp.4000


but something more precious you will get...

you know, how that bapak-bapak tua thank you for the choice, how he pray for you because of that little thing you've done for him...


and what does it mean???

that means more than just that Rp.4000....



-hanya sebuah renungan dari kakak-